“A lethargic avalanche of synthetic thought can take days to fall. Part of the mute paralysis of viscosity comes from knowing every detail of what’s ahead and having to wait for its arrival.”
I just finished the book and this is my favorite quote of the entire thing. A lethargic avalanche of synthetic thought. It grabs onto my spine and hangs me from the ceiling with it.
lalalalovely 
this movie made me think a lot about how mental disorders and asylums have changed and stayed the same over the past years. it’s quite interesting that most of those deemed insane then are not really deemed so nowadays (at least, not to such an extent that they have to be institutionalized). i think mental disorders, or at least perhaps the occurrence of them have increased and will do so in the future…perhaps because of evolutionary reasons. for example, in the middle ages, we didn’t worry about depression, we worried about living to the next day. the ‘easier’ life gets, or at least, the more improved it does, the more we have time to think about ourselves, our minds, and to come up with issues.
and i’m still having a hard time understanding what borderline personality disorder means…
It’s all very interesting, that’s the portion of my mental illness course we’re in now (hospitals) and I’m not sure how to feel about it. Certainly there need to be places where people who can’t function in society can get help. But saying that itself brings my back to the idea that it’s not the individual who has the problem, it’s that society itself functions in a VERY set way and those who don’t want to or can’t conform to that are crazy people. We also just read the study about those who tried to get into a mental hospital (sane) by pretending they were hearing voices but once they were in acted totally normal. They couldn’t get out, everything they did just got labeled something a crazy person would do… which leads to the question, can we really diagnose normality? The sane? I don’t think so. I have a problem with BPD too. It’s… a strange one. I felt myself feeling the same way that the main character in the book did, and I know other people do too. The questioning of self and life and what is perceived as how you ‘should be’ are kind of normal questions.